Your story is right THE FIRST TIME

by Ksenia Anske


Photo by Brooke Shaden

This might sound like a paradox and a far fetched idea, considering common knowledge about the amount of rewrites every author has to go through to make final novel readable. Until last week, I was under the impression that true story comes out in rewrites. I felt like I have a vague idea where I'm going and that vague idea is improving with every Draft. What happened last week threw me off and made me rethink this. I started noticing that in Draft 5 I'd edit a sentence, then write a new one, and then discover that the new sentence is EXACTLY the same one I have written before, in earlier versions, as early as Draft 1. That felt trippy. It also felt like I came full circle, back to the original points that I've lost or dismissed in Draft 2 out of fear, in Draft 3 out of an urge to cut everything I could cut, and in Draft 4 out of perfection. Here is what I think this means.

Your subconscious knows better. The very first time you sit down to start writing, the first time you type up that sentence that starts your new novel, in Draft 1, it usually comes from a scene in your head that persistently wanted to get out. Before you get scared, before any thinking happens, it's pure emotion. And it's always right, it's why you want to write it down and share it with the world. But somewhere along the process all of our doubts start shadowing it, putting it in the corner, and then make us lose it completely. I think maybe that's the cause for writer's block - when we feel like the story is lost, that's when we don't know what to write about. This is just a theory, so feel free to disagree with me in the comments, but it feels right at this moment. Moreover, all of a sudden what Stephen King said in his On Writing made sense. He said that a story is like a fossil found underground, and all you do as a writer is gradually uncover it. So that first sentence, or those sentences that I would write again and again are points of anchor for my story that were always there, I just managed to lose them and find them again in the process.

Your story is a small thing, with big details around it. This is something that I have read about Fight Club and how Chuck Palahniuk, one of my favorite authors, came up with the idea. It started out as a short 7-page story published in the compilation Pursuit of Happiness, and only later it became Chapter 6 in the completed novel. The idea came to him after returning from a camping trip all bruised and being astounded as to why none of his coworkers asked him what happened. They all avoided it. Bingo. Remember what Chapter 6 is about? It's about the main character's boss not letting him to present at work because he's got a black eye. That's exactly what Chuck experienced when he showed up at work bruised. Emotion is the same, but scenario is very different. I've noticed the same stuff happen in my writing. Beginning of my Chapter 7 is the same as the very first idea I jotted down for my story way back in 2008. It repeated itself again in another attempt in 2010, then in Draft 1 it migrated to Chapter 4, and now finally it's back in Chapter 7 of Draft 5. How I didn't see this before, I don't know. I can only attribute my blindness to the fact that I'm writing a novel for the first time and am, of course, doubting EVERYTHING about it.

Your story is an emotional being. Every story is really a few characters being thrown into a situation and then dealing with it. Everything about it is emotional, because if it's not emotional, if it's pure facts, why read it? We read newspapers for facts. We read stories for drama. And, like every emotion, the first time we feel it, it's right. Before our brain kicks in and starts trying to make sense of it. So, no matter how crazy your first attempt sounds, it's the right one. Consider this. I don't know if you read Malcolm Gladwell, I do and love every single book of his. In particular, Blink. There he narrates a story of museum specialists who were called upon to identify an ancient statue, to confirm its authenticity. Every single one of them had an iffy feeling for the first few seconds they saw it, but then when they proceeded according to their established process, everything seemed to be legit. Needless to say, the statue was a fake, sorry to spoil it for you. Read the book for yourself, it's awesome. The point I'm trying to make is, all of those people FELT something before their brain kicked in. Evolutionary, we have been wired to feel and trust our intuition, to survive, to detect things and act quickly. Somehow along with being civilized, we lost this hunter-like ability and don't trust our gut as much anymore, yet we should. I think that's why the first time you write your story down, it's right. But it's hard to believe this, of course.

Having said all of this, I still wonder where this idea will take me. I suppose I'll see unravel in my second novel, trusting myself more second time around. But somehow in my gut I knew my story was right from that first moment I jotted down the first line. Then for 4 years I proceeded doubting myself to finally return back to it full circle. Fascinating. Did any of you have similar experiences? I'd love to hear in the comments. Please, please, please, with a cherry on top! So I know I'm not insane. 


Let your novel thrive in SCHEDULE, NUMBERS, AND ROUTINE

by Ksenia Anske


Once in a while I'm being asked about my routine, my schedule, my daily tasks or to-do's or however you want to call those pesky little things that are supposed to propel your writing forward. To answer you and to attempt to root you in the same belief, here goes: WITHOUT ROUTINE I'M NOTHING. For the longest time I was ashamed of being such a routine-freak and was trying to hide this fact from people. I would admire folks who said the stroke of genius hit them in the kitchen, they dropped everything and wrote a masterpiece in a flash. Not me. I have to lock myself in my room every day to produce anything at all. But, a few weeks ago, I stumbled upon this fascinating Haruki Murakami interview, and realized that he's the same way as I am! So I stopped being afraid and started to believe that it's the only way to succeed. 

Maintain a rigid schedule. There are endless interruptions every day that will attempt to pull you away from writing. I don't know about you, but for me, unless I have specific hours assigned to my writing, I won't do it. Twitter will distract me, or kids, or something else. My schedule is usually very close to this (it varies from day to day within a 30 minute margin):

8-10am - social media; 10am-2pm - writing; 2-3pm - social media; 3-5pm - reading; 5-9pm - home stuff; 9-12am - blogging; 12-7am - SLEEP.

Any time something happens that kicks me out of this routine, it causes me to feel disoriented, which is a weakness in adhering to a schedule, but I also found that schedule creates a certain environment for me to keep my story alive. It has boundaries, it can't escape, it has no other choice but to grow up and mature, like a child that is testing the limits yet feels safe because there are some to begin with. And you heard it before from other writers: turn down the noise, minimize distractions, WRITE. I know not all of us are fortunate to write full time. If you can't, then set 1 hour in the morning or 1 hour in the evening to write. And, before you know it, it will start to flow.

Set specific number goals. I know writers hate math. I hate math. But there is magic in numbers, and I found that watching them grow helps me maintain the pace. I won't let myself out of the room unless I either - write for 4 hours straight OR produce at least 2,000 words (picked this up from Stephen King's On Writing). I keep daily word count and post it for everyone to see on Twitter, Facebook and Google+. People keep asking me, why? Are you trying to make me jealous of your word count? No. That's not why I do it. I do it because other people make me accountable. If I don't post numbers for one day, they will ask me - hey, how about those 2,000 words today? What happened? This makes me move forward. Another plus in sticking to numbers is it takes away anxiety. Suddenly, instead of thinking about writing a whole novel, all you have to do is write 2,000 words a day. That's it. It doesn't sound impossible, and after days and days of doing it, one day you'll find yourself being done!

Create a daily writing ritual. This is your routine, your attempt at capturing that elusive creativity and making it flow when YOU tell it to flow, not waiting for it to appear out of thin air. You might call it a crutch, you might laugh at the idea. Don't. It sets you in the mood. Like putting on exercise clothes makes you more likely to go exercise. For me it's 3 very funny things: playing Words With Friends, drinking coffee, and blasting very loud music. Once I'm done with my social media stuff in the morning, I close down all browser windows, open Pandora and turn it all the way up, cuddle with my phone for a few minutes to play 6 games (yeah, I'm a sucker for words) and then pour myself a huge cup of coffee. This helps me overcome the fear of starting, which sometimes can last up to 30 minutes. Oh, I also have Skype open so that if I feel absolutely awful, my boyfriend can virtually hold my hand and tell me I'm ok. After that, I'm good to start. Make up your own ritual, and you will feel an itch to write every day, because ritual creates comfort.

That's it, the rest is gravy. Well, it isn't, it's still a lot of tears and blood spilled on paper, but it makes it that much easier. Share your approach? What do you do to make your writing flow? Does routine help? 


Forget The Internets. Research your book IN REAL LIFE.

by Ksenia Anske


Photo by Benni Pause

While biking this weekend to a funeral home, of all places, I caught myself on a thought that perhaps I'm nuts. Perhaps I should do research for my book like all normal writers do - by Googling, going to a library, reading articles and books on the subject and such. But no, I HAVE to go and see, as if I'm scouting out a movie location (I did write, direct and produce a movie in the past, but that's a whole another story.) So I thought, wait, why do I do that? Why do I go through the trouble of physically going places, submerging myself underwater, stuffing myself in enclosed spaces, running through wilderness in torn jeans, and even dangling upside down? Because. Because it gives me invaluable insight that no Internet research can give. Here is why:

Elements you won't think about. A good book always balances on the description of five senses: Sight, Sound, Smell, Taste, Touch. I've got a sticky note on the wall in front of my writing desk to remember. But no matter how meticulously you follow this doctrine, you will leave out elements simply because you didn't even know about their existence. For example, I was writing an escape scene where my character runs through a back-alley. I've mentioned the stink, and the slimy ground, and the dark shadows, the echoing footsteps. I even mentioned the sour taste of air. The next day I went to scout the location. Guess what, it turns out that any back alley is full of pipes. Yes, water pipes or whatever, and they produce this gurgling water noise and steam. Have I not gone, I wold have missed it. Another example - I ran through the woods, not along trails, but deep in the thick of it, and I got covered in spider webs from head to toe. Have I not done it, I wouldn't have even thought there ARE spider webs.

Turn of events you wouldn't imagine. Back to the funeral home. I have a scene where a body is carried into a funeral home for a final goodbye, and some interesting stuff unfolds there. What I didn't know, however, was the fact that bodies can be cremated or chilled ONSITE (yeah, brrrr...) and that funeral homes own properties, namely, cemeteries. You might argue that this is easy stuff and anyone knows that. Except every one of us has had some experiences that are unique and every one of us has missed some experiences that are common to other people. I haven't been to a funeral in US, not once, so I had no idea about the ceremony. I'm sure whatever it is you're writing about, there is something that you are, pardon my language, pulling out of your ass because you've never done it. And that's fine, as long as you manage to make it sound authentic. Sometimes it's only a few sentences, yet they can make a huge difference for the whole story.

Characters you didn't think exist. This is my favorite part. Since my book is about sirens and all things fishy, I went to Seattle's Pike Place market to chit-chat with the fishermen there about catching fish, selling it, things like that. The people I have met were so colorful, I wanted to write several more books based simply on the characters and their speech. It was priceless. Yes, I meet new people every day (that is, when I decide to get out of my writing cave), but I wouldn't necessarily go out of my way to meet people with whom I'd have nothing in common. Researching my book forced me to talk to fishermen, and the result was so rich, I got hooked on the idea and now do this all the time. Talking to a Funeral Home director took close to half an hour, and I swear I will write him into a book at some point, somewhere, too good to let go.

Energy you didn't think you have. If you're like me, a hermit who doesn't go out much while writing, GETTING OUT GIVES YOU NEW ENERGY! Yeah, I know parties in general are boring, but if you go out with a clear goal of doing research for your book, suddenly a party can be fun for 6 hours straight. I lived through my Thanksgiving dinner like that - it was pure research, hence I was in on the secret while everybody else wasn't, and I was having a blast! I know it like sounds elementary-school humor, yet it's true. I can walk around an empty parking lot with a gleeful smile on my face and to nervous glances of passersby because in my head it's not a parking lot, it's a magical place, and they don't know it! I imagine Stephen King did the same when he conjured up The Dark Tower series, remember the scene with the rose in the vacant lot? Well, if you read it, you'll know what I mean. The perk is, upon returning home, your energy doubles, and that's a great thing. 

It's fun. Again, for the first time in my life I'm doing something for fun. Writing is pure fun to me and I've been denying myself this activity for 20+ years, because what respectable citizen would waste her time on fun?!? I believed I needed to hold a job like everyone else, and I was miserable. Writing is so much fun, and researching for writing is the best fun ever. It's akin to creating a living breathing magical world in your head while nobody has a clue. If that's not fun, than I don't know what is.

There. I think those are my major points about the benefits of researching your book IN REAL LIFE. What do you think? Agree? Disagree?